If you thought that being a Somali Christian is the hardest thing you ever seen, you thought wrong! I would say, staying as a Somali christian is even harder. You already know and believe that Jesus Christ is the Only way to salvation. Yet, in hard times Staying on the Road seems to be harder than leaving your family and everything you have given up to follow HIM. If you have not reached this state in your life yet, don’t worry, it will come.. this is not a once in a life time visitor, no, no, no, but an occasional visitor. So therefore please consider this message one that concerns you too…
Dear sisters and brothers in Christ, I greet you with the peace that no one else can give, but Jesus. May He bless you this very moment as you read this and may He fill you again with His peace and love.
It will soon be 5am here. Tonight was one of those nights where I did not sleep. My old friend, no actually my old enemy, tried to sneak back into my life as I went off to bed. It’s name is Fear! I had prayed with my good friend and sister in Christ before I went to bed. So, no I had not invited the bad spirit into my house by not praying. I had no nightmares, no threats or bad news. In fact I had such a lovely day. I had no reason to be afraid. Still, I felt that something scary was standing outside the door of my room! I knew it could not enter for in my room it clearly says “As for me and my House, we will serve the Lord” Josh. 24:15 Yes, a beautiful decoration hangs in front of my bed so that I can see the print on it. Josh. 24:15.
At this time, your family is tired of sending you threats, or cursing you…they have seen that your faith is strong and they have nearly given up on trying to make you come back “home”. Remember – home is where Jesus is – and where HE wants you to be. Now your family is trying to fish you back by being sweet, telling you, “you know you can always come back home, we will help you, we will help you be normal again, be your old self again”. At this time you might be having financial problems, life is getting as hard as it can be. So it is very tempting to just say “I saw nothing, I heard nothing, I wont say anything” and Go back “home” again. Remember – Home is where Jesus is – and where HE wants you to be. They are tying to convince you that you are sick, not normal… because you cannot be a Somali christian! there is no such thing, only if you have something wrong with your brains. And besides, it is much cheaper living with us! You don’t have to pay for the house rent, or food, or worry about bills, we will help you… hmm… before you answer them take a day off from everything, find silence and ask yourself this: why did I leave them in the first place? Is Jesus Christ less than God, now that I am having hard time? And who shall I please, my family and clan or the living God? Is my family and clan going to die for me? And at last ask: What will I tell Jesus when I meet Him face to face again, and He asks me “Why did you forsake me after all we have been through together?”
So, after long hours on my bed trying to sleep and read bible verses in my head: Isaiah 41:10, “Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.” And Pslam 4: 7-8 “You have given me greater joy than those who have abundant harvests of grain and new wine. In peace I will lie down and sleep,for you alone, O Lord, will keep me safe.”
The fear disappeared as quickly as it showed up! But yet I could not sleep, then I remembered “Ahh I had coffee a few hours before I went to bed!” 🙂 I don’t usually drink coffee, I am a Tea person:) but sometimes I drink coffee with sugar and milk! My friends say “that is not real coffee.” So since I can’t sleep I decided I wanted to write something to you. 🙂
I have had those days: the days when life is as hard as it can be! I struggled with finding a job, and was empty for money. There were days when I had no food! I invited my self over to eat with my friends. And my family surely knew about my situation so they all of the sudden got sweet and started calling me to “check up on me” Don’t get me wrong, I am not saying that they don’t care about me, I know they do, they do love me, but they love the family name and clan name more than they love me. And what is love in the Somali culture anyway? We hardly tell each other I love you hoyo, I love abayo, I love you abowe! If your family is used to telling you they love you, boy, you are one lucky person. Only when I found Jesus, only then did I understand what Love is. And now I tell my family that I love them, I think it must sound funny or weird for them to hear it all the time “wan ku jeclahay” almost cliche.
In those days: the days when life is as hard as it can be! I called my friends, told them that I was restless and told them about my worries. I emailed my father in Christ. I sent prayer requests to my families in Christ (not related by blood, but by spirit).
I took the time to ask myself the previously mentioned questions about why I left my family and clan to follow Christ…. Some of the answers I came up with were: Oh yes it is because I believe in Jesus Christ and I want to live for Him. It is because I had to choose between my family, and my Lord. It is because He gave me everything I ever wanted: peace, love, joy and just by believing in Him and staying in His Road I will spend my eternal life in heaven with HIM. So this is worth it I thought, yes, this hardship is worth all I have in Christ, even in my hardest days when I feel lost and lonely I feel HIM near me! HE never forsakes me. He stands by His word. “You are never alone my child, I am with you always.” He is faithful. oh, He is so good. Jesus is so good to my soul! And from there once again I fell on my knees and cried out to my Lord to strengthen me and give me patience so that I can wait on His goodness. His Will. I prayed once again “let your will be done O Lord in my life”. And once again my Lord, my God, Jesus Christ lover of my soul filled me with His peace and joy…. I actually started laughing and thought, “what was my problem?” Don’t get me wrong, I am not being unreasonable, the problems are still there, but they are no longer my problems you know, they are His! Jesus said: Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28. And boy, did He do that?! 🙂
You know deep down that what you have in Christ is irreplaceable, and now that you have tasted His Love, you can not be satisfied by any wealth, or other things you might desire…only Jesus is the one who gives you the peace, love and joy that you want. So don’t turn back on Him. My beloved sister/brother, please don’t do that to yourself! I know it is hard to stay as a Somali Christian, life is not easy for anyone! And when you are feeling weak, and you feel like you cannot pray, seek help, seek help in your local church if you have one, if not make time to write an email to http://somalichristians.org/ tell them what state you are in and they will pray for you! or go to facebook.com and search for Somali Christians, send messages to them and ask for prayers. Go ahead and download Paltalk.com and search for somalichristian rooms, if you don’t find them today, search again tomorrow. Come there and share your story with us, we will pray for you. You see, it is very important to have friends you share your life with, friends who know about your Chrisitan faith. You cannot be a christian alone! There is no such thing walal macan. You need to find people you can trust and share your story with, people who can pray for you, when you can’t. And I, your sister in Christ will pray for you, even though I don’t know you, I love you! I love you because you are my spiritual sister/brother. And I pray for you! May God guide you and draw you closer to Him. Stay in His Road, walk in His path, He is the way, the Only way to salvation!
I always tell my self not to drink coffee after 5pm because I struggle with sleeping! The thing is really strong. 🙂 but at least now I know why I didn’t sleep, and I also know that fear is not a friend, but an enemy. And Jesus and fear cannot live in the same place, for He casts the fear out!
1 John 4:18: “There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.” Jesus lives in my heart therefore whenever fear tries to sneak back in, yes unfortunately fear lived in my heart before…that is why I thought it was a friend because I was used to have it around ever since I was a little girl. Jesus lives in my heart as I was saying and therefore fear has nothing to do in this house! 🙂
I will now try to get some sleep for 2 hours after that it’s morning and I will need to do stuff. So for now goodnight, or good morning beloved ones, and remember to stay in His road, walk in His path, He is the way, the Only way to salvation. John 14:6 Jesus Said: “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.” And also remember that Home is where Jesus is and where He wants you to be. Until you hear from me again. Stay in peace, in His peace.
Love, yes lots of Love
your Somali christian sister